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I keep everything bottled up,
Don't know how to express how I feel.
So I harm myself thinking, that it's no big deal.
It's such a relief, no wait, it's an addiction.
Because speaking out is worse than causing infliction.
I don't know how to explain it,
But if you've never, then it's hard to comprehend.
But when you're all alone,
It's like the blade's your only friend.
Being alone is the worst,
'Cause you're so tempted to give in.
You're thinking you might burst,
If you don't tear a little at your skin.
It's more like a distraction,
Or something to control.
If you try to hold it off,
You feel emptier than whole.
I told you it's an addiction,
Whether you believe it or not.
It's not something fiction,
It helps me get rid of my thoughts.
There's so much more to it,
But I'm not even gonna try
'Cause even if I tell you,
You'll just keep asking me why.
"Why do you do it?
Why cause yourself this pain?"
It's 'cause I deserve it,
It's driving me insane.
Don't know how to express how I feel.
So I harm myself thinking, that it's no big deal.
It's such a relief, no wait, it's an addiction.
Because speaking out is worse than causing infliction.
I don't know how to explain it,
But if you've never, then it's hard to comprehend.
But when you're all alone,
It's like the blade's your only friend.
Being alone is the worst,
'Cause you're so tempted to give in.
You're thinking you might burst,
If you don't tear a little at your skin.
It's more like a distraction,
Or something to control.
If you try to hold it off,
You feel emptier than whole.
I told you it's an addiction,
Whether you believe it or not.
It's not something fiction,
It helps me get rid of my thoughts.
There's so much more to it,
But I'm not even gonna try
'Cause even if I tell you,
You'll just keep asking me why.
"Why do you do it?
Why cause yourself this pain?"
It's 'cause I deserve it,
It's driving me insane.
Literature
self hatred
I don't know how you could see this body as perfect
When all I see is mistakes
I'm not sure how you looked into my eyes and said you saw angels
when all I can see is deep darkness hiding demons in the shadows
You claimed I'm was too skinny and needed to eat
I say I'm not skinny enough and refuse to touch anything
You said I should open
I say I'm under lock and key
You said you where leaving
I want you to stay
You said I was beautiful
I only see ugliness
You said you'd return
I knew you wouldn't
Your last words to me where full of hate
and finally we agreed on something
Literature
EMO
She's simple not complex. She's cute not gorgeous. She's smart not brainy. But because she's just average she's invisible.
When she hurts no one sees.
When she bleeds no one cares.
When she cries no one hears.
She's gentle not rough. She's kind not cruel. She's sweet not mean. Because of this she blends in with the crowds.
When she loves no one cares.
When she sighs no one hears.
When she smiles no one sees.
She's dark not bright. She's quiet not loud. She's sad not happy. She's EMO, she's nonexistent but constantly ridiculed.
Literature
Addiction
My friend who supports me
My friend who kills me
My friend who loves me
and who I certainly love.
Will you give it to me
Your narcotic vengeance
Which I crave so much
and I want it to take me
Oh, my putrid friend
My sweet enemy
Will you take my conciousness
and leave it behind?
I love you my strange friend.
Give me what I want.
and you shall have me
For your disposal.
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I know I write a lot of depressing poetry/lit n I know you're *assuming* it's about me...SO STOP! *-* Don't make actions based on your ASSUMPTIONS.
**If you know me personally: check my wrists, they're clean! ._____.
Let's just say I know a few people. Short n simple.
**If you know me personally: check my wrists, they're clean! ._____.
Let's just say I know a few people. Short n simple.
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this is so beautiful