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Name: Jace
Age: 22


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August 26, 1994.
The day of my birth.
I’m assigned “female.”
Screaming, crying at the top of my lungs, before I’m branded with “she.”
Her. Hers. Female. Daughter. Sister. Niece.

T-shirts and jeans were my go-to.
I hardly wore dresses.
Nor would I curl my hair or paint my nails as often as my sisters.
Or when I wore dresses, I got, “Wow, you never wear a dress.”
I can dress like me, in jeans and a tee.
I can cut my hair short.
I can speak in chest instead of head voice,
I can pack and bind my chest
Regardless of what I do, I’ll never rest.

You won’t call me “He.” Him. His.
Son. I am your son. You’re not losing a “little girl.”
You have two daughters. You had two sons.
You adopted Matthew, but I guess you only wanted one…
Boy. You tell me that you know I’m hurting and “broken,”
But the dysphoria hits hard when my preferred pronouns are unspoken.
He. Him. His. Male. Son. Brother. Nephew.
You say you won’t call me my name until I transition,
But refusal to do so will create a separation.
2 years ago, you almost lost me as your daughter.
Don’t make this year about losing your son.
Mom has already started to call me “Jace,”
It hurts when you don’t, but I’m giving you that space.
I know you can’t grasp it,
I know you can’t comprehend,
I know you can’t fathom how I feel.
They say “blood is thicker than water,”
But if my friends were as you are to me,
They wouldn’t be calling me their daughter.

I told myself that when I’m older and have kids, I’d be more accepting
I’d be more supportive and caring
If my kid told me they were LGBTQ,
I wouldn’t express that I think it’s a phase.
Instead, I would comfort them and embrace.
Because you can push me away out of fear,
For "Him” + “Her” equals H-I-R, “HIR.”
"Hir" - pronounced like "here."
H-I-R = the combination of him & her... Hir.

My poems usually stem from pain.
They usually reflect my feelings or thoughts.
Not all, but most.
We had a home I never wanted to be in
You stayed until you couldn't
You stopped paying the bills
Each undeposited check racked up
The water wouldn't turn on
And our single bulb flickered out

We had a home I never wanted to be in
The windows were shattered
The walls had cracks
Nails were scattered on the floor
We were a real fixer-upper
But you "never had the time"

We had a home I never wanted to be in
But I never left
I didn't want the house to fall apart
We had so many holes
And they only just kept getting bigger

We had a home I never wanted to be in
And after enough wear and tear,
You decided:
This was a home you never intended on owning
This poem's not about a romantic relationship. It is about a relationship, but as in a friendship relationship. The analogy and the aftermath being: our friendship = home. 

From time to time, you cross my mind. After writing it, I also realized that "abusive relationship" might cross someone's mind. Or, it did mine, afterwards. I have the tendency to let accept the love I think I deserve. I cut this person out of my life because of the mess they made, of how distance and other circumstances changed them, and of how they would NEVER own up to their actions.

It wasn't about being right. I didn't cut him out because I wanted to be "right." I cut him out because he was toxic. I cut him out because HE COWERED when I simply asked, "Why?!" I cut him out because I KNOW I deserve more respect than what came from an old friend who didn't understand the concept of boundaries. I cut him out so I could be happier. He wasn't the same guy I knew six years ago.
the street lamppost light reflects onto the fence separating mine and my neighbor's yard

it lights a distant glowing background to the middle of my window and the ivy growing behind it

side glance, it looks like a figure. it looks like a person standing there, just watching, immovable. it doesn't look like it'd harm me. it looked like you.
it looked like you
un-capitalization = symbolization
3:07am // Sept. 13, 2016

this means something to me,
but it won't mean anything to you.
Floral Ghost
Floral ghost / blurry blob, aka Tyler Joseph from Twenty One Pilots.
Kind of having both Blurryface, the kimono & him from House Of Gold in the image.

Watercolor pencils/paint.

*Done 7.16.16. || The reason there's a different signed sig/watermark there is because that's my instagram.
**Sorry, I don't update my dA as often as I should! However, I do upload a lot of my art to instagram first, most likely.
My instagram is: robyyynnnnn.


Journal Entry: Mon Dec 3, 2012, 9:17 PM
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nerdboy69 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Thanks for the fave, it's greatly appreciated!! >w< 
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Hello! I was wondering if you wanted to join my group called Bisexual-Pride. It’s a group about Bisexual pride and accepts art about Bisexuality.

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after such many porns and orgy desires im called myself ambisexual but im dont think scream eveywhere how you are great bi is strange your life your decision
Insaneymaney Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I actually identify as pansexual and I don't really use dA much anyways. But thanks for asking.
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thank you for the FAV! :)
MichaelGibbsartist Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2015  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the fave :)
Please feel free to check out my Facebook page! be grateful for a like. 
There are works in progress on there too. 
Have a great day! :)…
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Thank you very much for the fav Sia Chandler!! 

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m-kins Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for that fave!
It really means alot to me!
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Thanks for all the favs.  Hug 
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